What it Feels Like to Wonder About Miscarriage

This is to share the intense feelings of a mother wondering if a frail little life in the womb will survive or not. Many, many women know this feeling and it’s not easy to give it words, a mixture of hope and faith, heartbreak and yearning, and no one – no one – but the mother knows exactly what it’s like.

And that’s OK. Such intimate knowledge comes with the mystery of motherhood.

From the instant you see the plus sign on the home pregnancy test, you know without a doubt that a new human life has entered the world – not the life of a random stranger, but the life of your child. You wonder exactly at what fraction of a second, at what instant in the still dark quiet of your body, someone new came into being, body and soul. Your child, your child! With awe, you realize that only God knows this answer. In those first intimate moments when you realize you are pregnant, you also realize that you are the only other human in the whole world who has met this new little person.

For now, it’s just the two of you, and God. It requires such faith to believe you are not alone, you are in the presence of another human being living within you, even though the sign on the stick right in front of you is tangible proof. It’s painful to realize that many people in our day and time would think you downright insane to care so much, so suddenly, about someone so small.

“That’s not a person.” Or more cruelly, “That’s not your child.”

Read the rest at Integrated Catholic Life. Maybe I should have titled it, “Go Ahead, Love Your Embryos.”

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Category: Abortion, Personal