Spiritually, I am in a new place. A few months ago I finally completed the Total Consecration of St. Louis de Montfort. I was prompted to re-try (I tried before and did not finish) this consecration after a spell of nightmares and heart palpitations. Oddly, the doctor could find nothing wrong, though my husband even felt my heart beating so fast it was, frankly, unnatural. For several weeks I woke from nightmares so intense that I did not know where I was, I was lost in some unknown place, and in all my nightmares I also lost my home and my family. My heart would beat through my chest so fast that it was scary. I began the consecration, and a week later it stopped. I canceled my future doctor appointments.
Then I had another miscarriage, but it was during the consecration and I discovered that I was at peace. You see, in the consecration you give everything to Christ through Mary. Everything. Yourself, your family, your belongings, your virtues. My fears disappeared.
I’m not just in a new place spiritually either, we are literally in a new place physically this year. I’m also enrolling for my last two courses this summer and completing the comp exams in the Fall to finish my MA in Dogmatic Theology next December. I look around me now, in this rustic setting, homeschooling my children, tending our home with my husband, reunited with my grown children, and loving life — and something’s changed in me.
I do accept these abundances, I struggled with accepting good things before because I knew I did not deserve it, but now I understand that I can accept anything because I will give it all right back to God. Until I die, I will be accepting, praying, and giving, consecrating it all to Christ through Mary.
So, I’ve gone and started a new blog. This one is just my name, and in discerning my new direction I decided that it was time to write about what I’m passionate about — science. I’ve long followed popular science, long read scientific papers for fun, and as I’ve learned about dogmatic theology, I’ve started to see science in a new way. I think I’ve found my niche as a writer. This blog was for learning, something I’ll always be doing, but the new blog will be more focused: Popular Science, Dogmatic Theology, and Mountain Life.
I hope you will all join me there, and re-subscribe, re-follow, re-bookmark. If you liked this blog, I think you’ll love the new one. I even have a Facebook page which I’m going to run as a mini-blog. What is that? you say. Well, come find out. I’m bursting with ideas!
And what of this blog? Oh, I have plans! It is not just going to sit here. All the old posts will remain, but I’m considering, pending interest, starting a small group of writers here operating similarly to Ignitum Today and Catholic Stand, only this one is for new converts. A group of new converts sharing their journey. My daughter may even take up the pen.
So if you are a new Catholic convert of five years or less, and you are interested in writing about your journey (people love convert stories) under the guidance of my free editing, managing, and promoting services (I know, I know, for what it’s worth), email me at firstname.lastname@example.org. You can help me decide how to redesign this space, but the name will remain the same. It stands for conversion.
And to the commenters awaiting the post on Egypt. It’s coming, it’s coming. Promise. Follow me over to the new place. The first two posts are already there. Come and let me know what you think.